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current music: mogwai - may nothing but happiness come
mood: tired, worthless, shitty, disgusting, etc.
I hate hate hate hate HATE when you work your fucking ass off for hours and HOURS, do all that you can to try to just make something satisfactory until it's just fucking soaked in blod sweat, and tears (literally. all of the above.) and not only does it not work, but it looks like you didn't even try, that you did it at the last minute in 15 minutes. no, less.
i hate it. i wish i could ever do anything i'm proud of.